i finally get it

well, its been a while since my last post and a lot has happened since. first of, i'm going back into public accounting and back to E&Y!! i'm really excited about the opportunity. traveling the world has been great and i've met so many people along the way. i feel very blessed and fortunate to have seen some of the places that i went. my last trip brought be back from Singapore, Indonesia, and Australia. Singapore is very much like the western world. Jakarta, Indonesia is 3rd world. lots of poverty and terrorism. Australia was by far the coolest what little time i spent there. country is beautiful and people are happy. hopefully someday i'll be back over there. its going to be tough now since i wont be traveling much anymore on business.

well, recently...i say recently but probably the last 6 months or so, i've been studying the Bible each and every night. i started really getting into it since my incident in Brazil. the more i read and study it's meanings, the more my life has been changing and turning toward a new direction. i've had ups and downs along the way of course. i know everyone is not perfect but i've met some really awesome people that have picked me up because thats what brothers and sisters do when friends have troubles.

i've been in a sort of denial for the last 10 years or so since i left college. i thought i knew it all and i was proud of my beliefs. i had a hard and heavy heart, the opposite of what God wants. i laughed at those who were religious and thought they were brainwashed. exactly like the people laughed at Christians in the Bible. i thought i knew it all. that was me. now my heart is soft and my life and attitude has changed dramatically.

yesterday i met a man named Scotty Spencer. he has had lou gehrig's disease for 12 years. people with this disease typically only live 5-7 years after they are diagnosed. i ate dinner over there and spent time with him and about 6 other people. we shared our beliefs and stories. Scotty shared his and it touched my heart. he was recently baptized and the documentary they showed put a tear in my eye. i feel very blessed and fortunate to be where i'm at today after last night. any one of us could easily not be here tomorrow and i want to make an impact. i want to be a spiritual leader to Emma and others. i want to be able to teach and reach out to others. i finally get it. it's taken 20 years, but i finally get it.